But. Huh? Fine. Okay.

-sleep

-change my tummy’s mind ‘bout that cupcake

-stay calm

-not cry

-not think about it

-not think about Angry

-not be hungry

-sleep

-not be frustrated

-think of happy thoughts

-focus on the positive

-sleep

-hate Angry

-sleep

I really am sorry Sam! I thought I’d be able to get out even just for awhile. I thought I’d finish everything by that time. But then hella things I didn’t know, popped out of nowhere.

I’m sorry to Betty too! I know I kind of frustrated you today. I’m just so extremely tired. As in I get like 4 hours of sleep at the most everyday, and then I’m doing other shit for the rest of the day.

Please don’t hella hate me.

2 more days and I swear I’ll be spending every waking moment with yall.

Thunder.Thunder.Thunder.

P.S Loveeeeee<3 yall

I’m really really tired of dying. Why? Because every thought kills me.

Today was such a nice productive day. Woke up and got coffee with Betty and Czarina. Was hella nice, just like old times when we skipped class fo’ coffee. Haha. Then Czarina spent like practically the whole day with me, thanks girrrrrl. Chopping up Red Bell Peppers and running errands with me. Once again just like the good ol’ days, except I was the one driving everywhere. I think my driving scared her a little. But I love Czarina, I would never kill her in a car. Besides the 4Runner is big, we wont die ;]

Dude, people are hella frustrating me ‘bout Saturday. They just gotta get here in one piece, on the day I tell them to, on time. I’m not even asking them to help, I’ve already realized that that’s gonna be impossible because they some rude ass ho’s. Me and Ate has had it up to the friiicken ceiling with these annoying ass people. Don’t worry, shiiit, we’re not looking for a hand. You’re presence is enough. Just don’t be hiding and beating around the bush. People who ain’t even related stand by our side. So don’t trip, we don’t need you. We just wanna see you, say hi and get on with our lives. Tired of B.S ass shitt. And when yall get here yall gonna pretend like you guys give a shiiiit. Man the ghetto in me is popping out. I apologize. Venting is very lovely though.

Thunder.Thunder.Thunder.

I really hate how I read all these blogs about liking someone thinking it’ll help, when in reality they do nothing. I wont take he advice. I wont listen. Humans are naturally stubborn, and I admit it. I’m a stubborn ass bitch and I hate myself for it. But we just really want to strive for that one thing you know.

Why are people trying to reach stars when there’s some perfectly good green grass right next to them? But I guess settling should never be an option. I guess that’s just the way I’ll always see it.

P.S Bought like half of CostCo. today. ‘Twas hilarious. I want this Dior nail polish, but it’s 20 bucks. WTF right? But it’s really pretty. (Inno just gave me a tictac) I love these kids, Christmas shopping is gonna be difficult.

Sent.